Self realization

 Do you remember who you were prior to what the world taught you to be? ~ Charles Bukowski

Knowledge is the entire illusion, all suffering is due to knowledge, words and the meaning to words is nothing but suffering, the rest of nature is aloof to words and therefore has zero mental suffering

GENESIS 3 READ IT

IN THE BODY LIKE ALL BODIES IS ONLY LIFE, cut the body open no one is inside, yet we have these identities and they are all just concepts, there is no one who exists, we are all nothing and nothing is everything Galatians 6:3

When the forces took over my existence through surrender love and devotion, life manifested inner to outer in all its glory and the realization we are all one existence and when body dies life leave it and merges back into this world which is the presence of God.

As I’ve said in these writings there is no entity that exists, the light within us is extreme intelligence and it remembers everything, when the body was born and life manifested in it, it became alive, we have the belief that there is a new person in the world, that’s the beginning of lots of suffering, concepts create all the unreal, unity exists when we drop all words

There is only the one existence, there is nobody who exists! 

 children suffer in school and most people don’t get it, who or what are we trying to teach? 

This is called mental suffering, then you have children killing themselves, so many have said I just need peace, the non stop thoughts from all the crap in there head is a bomb waiting to go off, when will people listen?

Genesis 3 in the Bible talks about the tree of knowledge of suffering, it has go to STOP.

Your true nature is pure peace itself, life is a no knowing, all happens through us not by us, just as the bird weaves a nest so perfectly for the new babies arriving, then when they are born the are feed, then when they are grown to fly and find there own food they are set free, the parents have no concepts of my children, nothing in nature is attached, only human nature and that’s why they suffer.  

There is NO OTHER, we are the eternal one, we come from the universe and we live in it and we will return to it when the body dies, universal existence-life is the only eternal, WE ALL ARE IT, prior to concepts there was no awareness of being anything, DONT you see it’s all concepts?

Be nothing know nothing is the rhythm of life, who is to speak to whom?

Die to the known, it’s all an illusion, when you can live life from the place of not knowing

I AND MY FATHER ARE ONE, I AM THE WAY THE TRUTH THE LIFE

Realization I never existed, head is empty, pure consciousness is the nature of all existence, aware there is no one else that exists, only I AM

Hold onto nothing, no past no memory, no nothing! 

You are life and life is free knowing nothing, your conscious presence is manifest existence I am, free of all knowledge, pure consciousness is our true nature, it is pure light and love, you’ll become aware of your grace when all the false identities fall away, Gods power is real and it’s only by Gods grace all this will become revealed!

No YOU exists

 We believe I am so and so,, we believe this is my daughter my mother, does anything else in nature live with these concepts? NOPE, is anything else in nature depressed? NOPE, tree of knowledge is all of human suffering, if you would simply look and see the only thing in all bodies is LIFE, it’s the concepts learned that human beings believe they are a somebody living life but that somebody is only a concept, there is nobody in any body!

How to teach humans they don’t exist? Human beings have to have the courage to inquire back into their existence and as you ask your own self  to whom is this world? You’ll see there is no answer and nobody there, we never asked our own self about our self, the more you realize there is nothing but life the more you’ll realize why we suffer mentally, it’s all concepts.

The habit or belief these are my children must go, loose every single concept, all nature raises their young, then nature releases them to nature, there is no concepts of mine,  it’s just nature doing what all nature does, co-create, every single thing in nature is male-female to keep creating, there are no concepts in nature and no attachments.

I don’t exist, there is no one in a body that exists, there is no one seeing out the eyes, there is seeing, hearing, it’s pure manifest existence that is conscious, how to know your existence? When you look in the mirror, it’s existence that’s aware the body changes, aware there’s a pimple on the face, that which is aware is changeless, there must be a changeless background on the ever changing foreground, know thyself as the pure formless changeless being, you must be aware of your true nature now that you know your the changeless being, stay aware of being conscious, the more you turn your awareness on the one aware, this is how you awaken to your true eternal nature, ask and you shall receive, who am I? Watch what happens when you ask yourself this question, enquire, the guru is within you.

Everything is nothing:  Galatians 6:3, “I am the life, “ Jesus has said this many times, but did not say directly that everything is concepts, he did  say tree of life or tree of knowledge? He found it easier to use parables, still no one could understand him, so look at your own self, is there a person inside your body? We are so conditioned by concepts, we send kids to school and no one realizes why they suffer, who are we teaching all these concepts and beliefs too? WHO? Absolutely no one but your making them believe they are a someone and it’s all just a bunch of words!!

Only life is in a body, and the manifest is pure light of conscious being, our true nature of light and love, once thoughts cease, light shines and you’ll be aware of that too, it is pure existence that is conscious, there’s no person conscious, only existence, when existence merges into sleep all vanishes, then existence merges back up this is the awake state and a whole world appears, all this dream is in consciousness, if there is no light nothing would be seen, all that is being seen is by your light.

by Gods grace can you realize you are life and manifest existence I am is pure light of consciousness, all are the eternal, intellect is nothing but concepts, just as no mind exists either but more believe in a mind! Such is what concepts do, words and meanings have created queens and kings, presidents and so forth and it’s nothing but concepts, no such entity exists, look to see who you are without concepts!! 

The dream is a projection of consciousness, all that exists from any to elephant is the exact same existence consciousness I am, without words, become aware of your own presence will take time, keep attn inward as much as you can, even remain on who is seeing?

Prior to knowledge who are you? In sleep who are you? Who is aware of the dreams in sleep?   

The concepts of being a person is one’s misery.

Life is the supreme guru

 When life wants you to know your truth, it comes in the form of pain and suffering, WHY? We surrender when pain strikes, we pray to God and so forth, this has to happens so that your conscious presence surrenders and this is the beginning of the shift.

LIFE IS THE SUPREME GURU

I am sure many of you have had gut feelings and that is life trying to guide you, we believe to be the body and a person, this is why nature brakes the body down with pain, because you are NOT THAT BODY, you are the body of existence -life eternal.

Ask and it shall be given~ Jesus Christ, self inquiry ~ ramana Maharishi ASK YOUR OWN SELF WHO AM I?

We are full of intellectual concepts, this is what dies while alive, by grace your brought back to pure consciousness knowing nothing .

Your awake state is manifest existence I am, NO MIND, pure emptiness is your true nature,  there’s no person in a body and all knowledge is the whole illusion.

LIFE IS THE SUPREME GURU

I am the way the truth the life ~ Jesus Christ 

trust only in you 

Existence is a non entity

As a baby you took the breath of life and became alive., just like all nature, you are pure existence of this universe, the seed and the life is the universe and you were so free not knowing anything, with no knowledge there was no suffering, there was no knowing whatsoever, you played with everything g and you were fearless, then we begin to learn who we are but the learning was all about the body and about all other objects that exists, all got names and descriptions, then as your learning goes on then meanings to the words, this is how you are experiencing life, as you get older you feel like a separate person with all other persons and animals and so forth, fear becomes a reality to us, fear of death hangs over us, non of this affects anything else in nature only human nature, all that you know about yourself is nothing more then concepts.


did anyone ever tell you that you are existence? Isn't it obvious that all that exists is only existence?  Problem Is the mind actually believes it is an entity, the mind does not know existence, life,  it only knows what you are NOT,  truly all that you are is existence, nothing else exists but the one existence manifested as all creation, you know I AM, but that's all you should know, existence is aware it is, but your I am that you say thinks it is an entity, a somebody and that somebody is nothing more then concepts,no entity exists in this universe whatsoever, what is a person? How do you create a person? It's a complete illusion, your own existence does not know it's true nature as existence itself, you are the inside of the outside and the outside is the inside, existence is always now unchanging, it is free of all concepts and it is fearless because existence always exists, you as existence have never asked anything about yourself to yourself, nor have you realized that you can only ever be existence, so if you as existence ask yourself:  from Where am I seeing from? It's a question your conscious presence should hold onto until it's answered, existence has to turn back into itself and see what is living? You can only say I am life, life is alive, does anything else exist in the body besides life? NO, the mind struggles with this because the mind is filled with concepts that I am so and so, I am this age or a female, so this all that the mind knows.

You have to free yourself up of all the concepts you have on yourself, try just being existence which is a no entity, a baby is pure life not knowing anything and the baby is fearless, what's to fear when nothing is known?  try and keep trying to be what you really are prior to knowledge, throw the " I" out of the mind because no such entity exists, what is an I? It's an idea I am so and so, I have desires and fears, I have this or that, I have a birthday, how can existence be an entity I? How can existence have a birthday? When was existence born? So do you see this clearly? You who are the pure existence of the universe was trained to believe your a somebody when truth is you are a nobody because existence is existence, life is life, when life leaves the body it merges back into the total existence and becomes unlimited again, the body dies and changes all the time but not spirit, not existence who is the one supreme being, you are the supreme being, you are unlimited infinite existence and all that exists in the wonderful variety of creation is one existence.

Once you live as existence which has no identifications as being anything else except for what you are you will become so free and the more you remain aware of your existence the more it awakens to its splendor and will manifest itself in all its glory, keep the mind in surrender, accept what is at all times, the ego must die because it's that conceptual entity that blocks you from your true nature as existence which is this present moment, there is no beginning or ending to your true nature and when the " I" is thrown out of the mind only existence remains as a non entity, you need nothing because you are already complete and free, you are all creation when you live as existence you will see it's so obvious that only existence exists.

When you begin to realize the nature of all these concepts you will see clearly it's the cause of all the suffering in this world, you see beings falling apart when the idea of a loved one died, this idea there is a you and an other is very painful, there is no other nor has there ever been an other, all are the exact same manifest existence and it does not die,,it only merges back into this moment and becomes unlimited, DONT BE AFRAID OF WHAT YOU ARE, it the only truth, as Christ said I AM THE LIFE, THE LIGHT, THE WAY, the light is your. conscious presence, that light is what is aware, you are aware of the room that your in, you are aware when body gets hungry or hurt, LIGHT AND LIFE IS ALL THAT EXISTS, there's no me no you and no I, there's only life, existence and your light, this light is what is aware and it's how existence knows it is, it is aware of the dreams in mind when body is sleeping, it is aware of this dream world, earlier you were told to ask from where are you seeing from? Well from your light which is your very awareness, and your aware of existing and aware all that exists in the OCEAN OF LIFE IS LIFE AND LIFE IS A NON ENTITY, it is free, it is the spirit, it is the supreme being of universe and you are THAT

LIVE AS EXISTENCE AND SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL YOUR LIFE WILL BECOME AND WATCH THE BEAUTIFUL PATTERN OF EVENTS, you have no cares or concerns, being a non entity which is what you are is freedom from all concerns and concepts, prior to knowledge you were pure existence only, you are that now and for eternity, life is the eternal, unborn and deathless.

There is no mind, what we. call thought is mind, your not thoughts, if you have trouble with thoughts hold onto one thought, then nothing else can enter and soon enough you will return to your.natural presence as this present moment.

No mind

In the awake state if you remain as you are with " no mind" no concepts you remain the perfect being that you already are.

what beings call mind is truly consciousness, you are pure consciousness I am in the awake state with no mind, there's no such thing as " mind" it's a word created in this conceptual world, truth is what one calls mind is thought, a thought comes and you believe your thinking it and that is not so, thoughts rise in consciousness, just see it and then it will go, abide as NO MIND  and you'll see what your true nature is, it's simply being, that's it, just being and it's bliss when you realize there is no mind.

So take a seat and see, abide as no mind right now, soon you'll be able to live a great life with no mind, no thinking and no thought, pure being is pure spirit, your eternal nature, it's so simple when you stop using the mind to discover what you already are, pure being never changes, all else comes and goes while you always are, unchanged being, you are not going to sleep and waking up, consciousness rises all comes into being, consciousness merges back into core all vanishes but not you, you always are and your the one aware of all this, so in awake state remain as NO MIND and you'll come to see that you are peace itself and joy, just being, not being anything at all, just being and seeing with no interpreter.

as you remain as you are with no concepts running you'll see how effortless your spirit is and soon you'll perceive that it is pure light that is seeing, thoughts and thinking cover it up, so when you stay as no mind the light will soon be shinning and all that you see will look so beautiful and peaceful, stay aware of no mind so your attention is drawn back inward, being aware of your own existence.

You'll no longer believe you are a body or born,  fear will come to an end with the realization all that exists does so because you are, the world was born in you and by your light it is seen, so rest in NO MIND and allow your own treasure in the core of the being that you are come to realize itself

NO MIND ONLY PURE EFFORTLESSLY BEING, no you no God, no God no you

If I am God, why don't I know it...

 Gods name is I am, I am THAT I am, it is invisible existence which has no beginning or ending to it, your true nature is this existence, there is NOBODY WHO EXISTS, only existence exists, let me explain: when body was born it took the breath of life and the body became a living entity, like all nature, but human nature was taught words and the meaning to the words, so your existence which does not know itself, was taught it’s this body and a person.

NOW we teach a bird to speak and it does, but the bird does not know the words or the meaning to words and it is free of any kind of identification, the bird remains happy, human nature Became the words, YOU BECAME THE WORDS AND MEANINGS, it’s astonishing, in the back of brain there’s a pocket of memory and words and meanings develop and grow, you did not know the word fear or the meaning of fear until you learn this word, as a child it meant nothing but now it means everything, we grew into the belief that we are a somebody that’s experiencing life.

THIS IS THE WHOLE ILLUSION, the body speaks like a radio, open it up nobody is inside, the body is like a computer, spitting out words, TO WHOM? This is what concepts have created and it’s all we know until grace comes and transforms you back to your true nature as pure existence, the ego gets destroyed by the life and light when it manifest through the brain, what remains is pure empty space, just like your animals, there head is empty of concepts, that’s the true nature of all existence, but human beings are suffering by knowledge of this world..

The parable tree of life or tree of concepts.

 the I am that you say is manifest existence that’s conscious, it’s pure emptiness and free not knowing anything is our true nature. So you ask about working and things that you have to learn, that’s ok as long as you realize the knowledge you have is to do your job and it does not affect any other part of your life.

we have zero awareness of our conscious presence, and this is all you have to come to know, the very I am that you say is the divine manifest existence that is conscious and aware is pure light and it’s love, the light is not hidden from anyone, it shines out all the eyes,  I AM THE LIGHT OF WORLD

Your conscious presence was trained to only know the body as yourself, YOUR CONSCIOUS PRESENCE IS EXISTENCE, not a body, body is there so you can know I am, it’s how you know you are.

you identify as a body because your conscious presence was trained to only know the body not existence, when your parents said: where is your nose, your eyes, your ears, and your pointing at them as your hearing these questions, so this is how our conscious presence became identified as the body and this is how the journey of suffering began and the idea I am so and so, it’s all concepts, there’s no person, only existence exists, when body dies life leaves it and merges back into world, body dies not YOU!! If you grew knowing your true nature as invisible existence no fear would ever enter!! When I am aware that my body is this universe and unborn unlimited existence and for a short while I manifested in a body and became aware that I am and it was so much fun but now body is sick and it’s time to merge back into the universe there’s no fear of death to that which was never born, there’s no beginning or ending to who you are!

You think your a person waking up and sleeping, that’s not so, your conscious presence manifest and Unmanifest, it is existence itself, yet we never questioned where is a person in a body? There’s no such thing as a person, a person is a creation of concepts only, there’s only the one existence I am .

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Life is what’s eternal, life is this present moment and it’s timeless and changeless without a beginning or ending to it, Your existence I am rises and subsides in the core of life!

existence needs to body to manifest in to know it exists! To know I am..

How to know my conscious presence?  constantly be aware of being conscious, the more you stay aware of your own existence the more it awakens to it’s true nature, inquiry ends all concepts and mental suffering, have you ever asked who is seeing? From where are you seeing from? Watch what happens in the mind when you inquire. You’ll come to realize your true nature is pure peace and silence,

when we say I am tired, you are identifying the body as yourself, you are the one aware that the body is tired, the same when body is hungry, your the one aware the body is hungry, do you see how concepts has created us to believe we are the body? This is why we have the fear of death, but your not the body, you are what gives life so it becomes alive, you are everything that exists in this world, everything is life.

BE AWARE OF THE BODY SENSATIONS, once your aware of the hunger and of the bodies pain or tiredness you become free of fear and know you are eternal existence and not the body.

I AM THAT I AM MEANS YOU KNOW YOU ARE THE UNLIMITED PRESENCE OF THIS WORLD.


Your manifest existence is behind the body, to become aware of your presence stay aware of your existence, as long as your draw your awareness back onto yourself it will behind to awaken to itself, you see we are not aware of our own presence so it seems hidden, but it’s not, all will become clear to you, keep up your inquiry to bring back the pure ness and emptiness of mind, realize all the knowledge in you was put intou do throw it out, knowing nothing is wisdom, the nature of life is a NO KNOWING

existence is experiencing itself through the wonderful variety of forms but know it’s all the exact same existence, the mind was trained to see all as the names on the forms so the mind can only see the dog as a dog, it does not see the dog as Existence, we are missing out in this glorious life not knowing we are the all and it's the greatest bliss and love.

To realize your true presence know it is existence and not a person, constant awareness that your existence and then you'll become more and more aware that indeed your are pure existence which is the manifest love and light, your light will be perceived when your true presence begins to realize itself.

To know your true presence you must be constantly aware of your own existence, don't let all your attn be outside of you, be aware of who is aware, draw your attn back onto yourself this is how you will discover your true nature

All the mental suffering and depressions we go through is due to belief I am a person, all this mental suffering will cease to exists because there is no person, all concepts are false, no person no mental suffering,

there is only the we one manifest existence and it's pure light and love, emotions will cease, thoughts will not control you anymore, all the suffering of depression and ideas of separateness will all cease, you'll be able to truly see for the first time that everything is all one existence manifested and no One is born nor dies,  existence is always alive and invisible, this moment is our unlimited body.

Before you can see all are the one manifest existence it has to be realized within you and your true presence will become revealed because your now focused on it and aware of it, once your conscious presence is focused on itself it awakens to itself, inquire into yourself on who you are, be aware that you are aware, the more your attn is on you the more your true nature awakens to itself, this is how you realize the ego is nothing but a creation of concepts, no person exists, only existence exists, the very conscious presence I am is pure light and pure love, once it awakens your true life begins...  BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD

Pick up your cross and follow me

What did this cross represent? Pain and suffering, why?  it is part of having this mechanical body, we resist pain and welcome pleasure, how can you ever grow into who you really are if these are divided? who you are does not resist anything that comes, all that comes is from grace, you may not realize it at the time, it is the truth..When we surrender into what is and divide nothing, the treasure opens and grows more from that..

Afflictions are given to help you grow in strength and they lead you back to your truth and your home within.

Come to know your own manifest existence that is a pure conscious being.


Why sufferings? well if not for sufferings you would continue to "think" you are the mind and body? sufferings lead to surrender which collapse this egotic mind, mind is pure resistance, individualistic,  you are not these, you are the one who is aware of them, right now in this world 99 percent take their lives to be a separate individual, which consist of being mind-body only so when sufferings arrive in your life where do you turn? most turn to God and start praying, without sufferings no one seems to pray, from prayer you surrender to what is and that is when life will shift.

Who is living? we never speak of this, we only speak of this is my name, this is what I do, this is when I was born, who is living? who am I? who is seeing? who loves?

Without suffering I would of never known this beauty which sits within my heart, grace kissed my heart and lite up my consciousness to realizing and this revealing of being pure divineness the eternal 


pain or suffering is the greatest teacher, for it kills the unreal ego, what is within is greater then anything known, all that is known is limited and false knowledge.

There is only  one divine being who is living here in all things and in all beings, so many beloveds are lost behind all these names and labels and descriptions, tree of knowledge is the illusion and source of all suffering  

this ego is illusion, cut open body no one is inside yet we live with concept I am a person but truth is I am the eternal, I am is the name of the eternal 

every single being is this fathomless treasure, how glorious it is just to be knowing all is myself in this world, the world is the supreme being which is lifE without beginning or ending and it’s life that is the all, your conscious presence I am and life are one without knowledge like the rest of nature

Mind is an illusion, there’s no such thing, mind is thought and thought is mind, no thought no mind 

All nature is concept free but human nature and human nature is very troubling and so many suffer from thought 

I AM LIFE AND LIFE IS ETERNAL, BE WHAT YOU ARE PRIOR TO KNOWLEDGE

the invisible is the real, it sees thru the eyes and experiences itself here, it never ever dies and it is only one,  we are all one divine being and always who am I? when you ask yourself the mind goes into complete silence, this is one question the mind can not answer, it turns the mind back in, find out who it is...

  we took ourselves to be something else therefore we never realize our own divine truth! So may years waisted on false beliefs to be something else other then truth, this will change your life, the real divine love opens in the center, all will realize they are this one divine, who could ever hurt who? this will change the entire world, because the world is within you

1 Peter 2 4:13 but rejoice in as much as you are partakers of Christ sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, you may be glad also with exceeding joy. (nothing can describe this, no words can touch this ever)

so much joy love and peace comes and leaves a imprint on your heart

when you surrender something else takes over, this is the dearest lovable surprise, it is divine and it reveals itself, trust in surrender, live a life of surrender, resistance is mind and it will never win, once the mind collapses, the divine reveals itself from that, you have always been the divine, it is not known due to the active mind, the divine is hidden under this mental activity, once surrender is done, the divine removes this mental activity, something so glorious shines through your consciousness,and the mind becomes 'NO MIND", in stillness your divineness shines it's light, the the peace that is experienced sir passes all understanding, no words can express this beauty, It shines from within you and out and as far deep into the sky, how can anyone express this fathomless peace?

Romans 8:18 For I recken that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed (yes)

Your cross represents afflictions, pain, divisions,  and complete suffering, pick up your cross and surrender to what is, you never die,  it is the body that suffers, Your not the flesh, how could you be?  the moment you open your own awareness to everything, you will begin the movement inward to discover yourself, this body and world changes all the time, who is aware of the coming and goings? find out, realize who you have already always been.

if you ever want to grow deeper into who you are, accepting all that comes is the only way,  love every single experience...resist nothing!

• All that you love is the exact same existence, one with no other 

Everything that happens is supposed to happen, nothing happens that is not supposed to, listen to the messages..


I am the life, I am the manifest universal existence and when body dies life leaves it and merges back into this world and becomes unlimited, the supreme being is this world, we have forgotten our true nature as invisible existence, we were taught to be a body and the intellect, that knowledge is the cause of all suffering, when you realize you are existence not somebody who exists, all mental suffering will cease to exist and so will the idea of others, everything is existence, from the Cato dog to bird to the horse to the man, all bodies differ not the living, THERES only existence!

1Peter 2 4:12 Beloved think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you..(.it leads you to glory of your own self) why does the supreme cause suffering? So the ego will surrender, when ego surrenders truth in who you are will begin to sine forth, ego is a creation of concepts, so unreal we took that to be real and not even knowing our own invisible existence!! Nothing is alive without life, we are not somebody’s who’s living life, grow out all that knowledge and see who is seeing, THERES no person in a body, it’s manifest invisible existence I AM, your true nature 

Romans 12:1-2  Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind

I so love you