Pick up your cross and follow me

What did this cross represent? Pain and suffering, why?  it is part of having this mechanical body, we resist pain and welcome pleasure, how can you ever grow into who you really are if these are divided? who you are does not resist anything that comes, all that comes is from grace, you may not realize it at the time, it is the truth..When we surrender into what is and divide nothing, the treasure opens and grows more from that..

Afflictions are given to help you grow in strength and they lead you back to your truth and your home within.

Come to know your own manifest existence that is a pure conscious being.


Why sufferings? well if not for sufferings you would continue to "think" you are the mind and body? sufferings lead to surrender which collapse this egotic mind, mind is pure resistance, individualistic,  you are not these, you are the one who is aware of them, right now in this world 99 percent take their lives to be a separate individual, which consist of being mind-body only so when sufferings arrive in your life where do you turn? most turn to God and start praying, without sufferings no one seems to pray, from prayer you surrender to what is and that is when life will shift.

All suffering is the belief one is the body, so many brake down when a death in family happens, the pain of it all, and it’s all an ILLUSION, existence that’s conscious is playing, one must become aware they are not the body or mind, there’s NO OTHER, who is to cry over whom? 

Inquire into yourself, highest guru is life 

Without suffering I would have never known this beauty which sits within my heart, grace kissed my heart and lite up my consciousness to realizing and this revealing of pure luminous being .

this ego is illusion, cut open body no one is inside yet we live with concept I am a person but truth is I am the eternal, I am is the name of the eternal, existence becomes free from concept it’s the body, it’s hard to go beyond what you were taught, we all were taught we are the body and taught all the things seen, everything we know is a complete ILLUSION

mind is thought and thought is mind, no thought no mind 

I AM LIFE AND LIFE IS ETERNAL, life is everywhere, our presence is always HERE., BE WHAT YOU ARE PRIOR TO KNOWLEDGE

the invisible is the real, it sees thru the eyes and experiences itself here, it never ever dies and it is only one,  we are all one existence pure being, the changeless presence.

who am I? when you ask yourself the mind goes into complete silence, this is one question the mind can not answer, it turns the mind back in, find out who it 

1 Peter 2 4:13 but rejoice in as much as you are partakers of Christ sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, you may be glad also with exceeding joy. (nothing can describe this, no words can touch this ever)

so much joy love and peace comes and leaves a imprint on your heart

when you surrender something else takes over, this is the dearest lovable surprise, it is divine and it reveals itself, trust in surrender, live a life of surrender, resistance is mind and it will never win, once the mind collapses, the divine reveals itself from that, you have always been the divine, it is not known due to the knowledge taught to us 

Romans 8:18 For I recken that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed (yes)

Your cross represents afflictions, pain, divisions,  and complete suffering, pick up your cross and surrender to what is, you never die,  it is the body that suffers, Your not the flesh, how could you be?  the moment you open your own awareness to everything, you will begin the movement inward to discover yourself, this body and world changes all the time, who is aware of the coming and goings? find out, realize who you have already always been.

if you ever want to grow deeper into who you are, accepting all that comes is the only way,  love every single experience...resist nothing!

• All that you love is the exact same existence, one with no other 

Everything that happens is supposed to happen, nothing happens that is not supposed to, listen to the messages..


I am the life, I am the manifest universal existence and when body dies life leaves it and merges back into this world and becomes unlimited, the supreme being is this world, we have forgotten our true nature as invisible existence, we were taught to be a body and the intellect, that knowledge is the cause of all suffering, when you realize you are existence not somebody who exists, all mental suffering will cease to exist and so will the idea of others, everything is existence, from the Cat, to  be dog to bird to the horse to the man, all bodies differ not the living, THERES only existence!

1Peter 2 4:12 Beloved think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you..(.it leads you to glory of your own self) why does the supreme cause suffering? So the ego will surrender, when ego surrenders truth in who you are will begin to shine forth, ego is a creation of concepts, so unreal we took that to be real and not even knowing our own invisible existence!! Nothing is alive without life, we are not somebody’s who’s living life, grow out all that knowledge and see who is seeing, THERES no person in a body, it’s manifest invisible existence I AM, your true nature 

Romans 12:1-2  Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind

I so love you

From where do I come?

From where do I come I do not know, floating through and all over, The precious gift is not known, and can not be explained, For who can tell me?  I am that what ever that may be, it is of the most purest love, infinite light,  it shined by itself to itself in itself. When self woke up nothing had a name, no words were spoken just seeing. walking as if I was flying, There was no effort, I was lifeless yet in fullness of extreme peace floating inside and outside, endless like the sky, feeling nothing but my own self, invisible and all pervading,The beauty in who I am can not be explained, How to explain this? Tears flow when I think of my own self, who am I? I do not know, how to give self a name, I say nameless..


I cry tears of joy for this gift, The gift of self....I am here and now with a heart so filled, The universe is my heart, Sit in my heart and you will know, Do not listen to anything but self, Self is who you are, Not what you perceive, Go in and stay in, inward is who I am, This is where you will find me, I am not out there some where, I am here, I am you and you are me flowing, loving and loved.

A rose needs nothing to sit in it's own beauty.... There is no one there to tell them it's name or what everything seen  is, Take notice in this!.....Therefore it shines on it's own. If there were no words you would know self, when there are words there are thoughts, say goodbye to thoughts and know thyself.